♥ watching you shine.

♥THIRTY - EIGHT.

2007-10-10T11:58:00.000+08:00

i'll be updating more on LJ.

thanks for coming.

goodbye & good day.

♥ THIRTY - EIGHT.

2007-10-09T10:56:00.000+08:00

i love this picture. i look so bloody happy .... and so ... young. i was fifteen at that time. everyone in the picture now look totally different ... i guess we have all grown up.

TO : EMILY

i hope your foot is feeling better and get well soon! :) and psst, be extra careful next time.

TO : FAMILY

thank you for everything. i love you all. :)

TO : JOAN, MAS & AISHAH

thanks for the non - stop fun and laughter. and most importantly, thanks for listening. :)

TO : SAUFI

today marks our 2 years anniversary but of course you are not here to wish me. despite the pain and endless problems we went through, only i end up staying but you left running away from me. no matter what, i will always remember the good and the bad times. study hard. don't fail your o's this time around.

THANK YOU ALLAH for giving me the strength to move along each day.

♥ THIRTY - SEVEN.

2007-10-07T22:12:00.000+08:00

history didn't repeat itself, we repeat history.

please save the pigs.

THIRT - SIX.

2007-10-06T14:00:00.000+08:00

yesterday PUTIH give birth to NINE cute babies.

but i am very sad. extremely sad. very very sad.

because none is alive.

PUTIH is not ready to be a mommy. -.-"

its alright putih, your owner still sayang you. :)

♥ THIRTY - FIVE.

2007-10-05T13:12:00.000+08:00

isn't this hamster's cage extremely awesome? if only my room is big enough and if only i am rich enough to supply my hamster with this kind of house. it is way better than bungalow or terrace! but then .... it will be the worst time of my life when it comes to cleaning it! anyway, my lovely hamster, PUTIH, is pregnant! it will be due around next week i guess. i thought both are females. -.- but i did saw them trying to mate each other though but i was hoping they were lesbians. haha. stupid owner, i know.

AND.... N LEVEL IS OFFICIALLY OVER! it feels like a gigantic rock has been lifted from my brain. yeah everyone is happy and enjoying now. honestly, i am not satisfied. i missed my science paper and i didn't get to study well all because of stomach flu. stupid virus! i hope for the best.

its going to be 2 weeks already since you ignore me. this is the third time. i don't understand why you have to do this to me after all the promises and the words that you told me. i already apologised, what more do you want? i am not the one being stubborn here. why can't you ever keep your word? why must it always end up like this? it is always your way, never ours.

hari raya is coming. sigh. not looking forward to it.

♥THIRTY - FOUR.

2007-09-30T01:42:00.000+08:00

[misai cat] :)

hello. it is nearly 2 A.M but hey i am still awake ... updating because for some reason i want to revive it back. anyway the cute cat above is not mine ( i wish it is!), i found it in random at one of this website .... which i entirely forget where! -.-" somehow when i stare at the cat longer, he/she looks like Charlie Chaplin. anyway i will love to take pictures of the cats under my block soon and put it up here! one is called batman & the other called pirate. you'll know why when you see it.

besides school life and the fact that N level paper will resume on THIS COMING BLOODY MONDAY and I'm all stress up & sad because of the same old problem. when will it stop? i really hope it's going to be soon because i don't wish to fail again. how could you do this to me over and over again? don't you ever stop and think about your actions? or perhaps about my feelings at least. oh yeah, you don't. settle this soon with me, will you? just don't keep me hanging on & stop giving me your silent treatment.

TUESDAY: i went for a minor surgery at NSC. i am glad that it (it is still not known) is finally removed but there's stitches at my upper lip. it was really scary. i could feel my heart beat rapidly and i felt like i was going to puke my heart out but thankfully it was fast and only the injection to numb my upper lip was damn painful and the rest... pain-less. next Tuesday will be my next appointment. this time i have to remove the stitches. i don't even want to think about how they are going to take it out. *wobble*

yes we all do but oh girl just save your breath, we are not listening.

♥THIRTY - THREE.

2007-09-11T21:18:00.000+08:00

MEET MY SCHOOL CLEANER! no, really!

thanks JOAN for the pictures. :) there's more but this one i like best. this is what happened when you're bored in the toilet & when you are annoyed with the dirty floor. MOP TO THE RESCUE!

today i didn't attend to school because of blablabla but i went out with him to buy the tickets to the muay thai championship. yes ah! finally ... we bought the cheapest. -.-" but its alright, as long as i get to watch it live, its fine with me. as we're students, its cheaper. when it come to this, im glad im still a student. :)

AND FASTING IS THIS THURSDAY! cepat eh? after that hari raye, urgh, i don't like hari raye. but i do like the green packets. $$$$.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO AZILAH! HAPPY 23RD DEAR on the 9th.

♥THIRTY - TWO.

2007-09-06T13:50:00.000+08:00

MALAY PAPER was alright to me. EXCEPT for the comprehension. PERIBAHASA was chicken feet. BUT, i hope i can get better grade than a B4. thats what i got for last year. im relieved because this year there's no bina ayat.

SOCIAL STUDIES PAPER was really ...... i don't know what to say about the paper. the SBQ questions was tricky that i kinda got confused which is reliable or which is not. but i finished it all. SEQ questions like shit. I studied like hell about merger and separation but it didn't even come out at all! i choose northern ireland in the end. but i didn't get to accomplished it. i was rushing. sedih.

ENGLISH PAPER was 50-50. i was rushing too.

THANKS TO ALL WHO TAG TO WISH ME LUCK! :) <3
oh yeah, i love stickers! -.-"

♥THIRTY - ONE.

2007-08-30T19:32:00.001+08:00

FOUR MORE DAYS TO N-LEVEL!

i really hope that all the papers will be easy. fat chance. hoho.

the picture above was taken by me at vivo. i pretended to be a photographer for a day.

past few days, nothing much happened. saturday went out with mommy & sis to compass point and i had a good time eating at swensen. i tried their new dish. boy, was it so delicious! PRAWN DIPPERS IS <3.

unfortunately, the mall don't really have alot of nice shops. i wanted to survey shoes & clothings but none interest me.

i've not been meeting my dearest saufi for nearly 2 weeks but its alright, its ok, i can survive. :) we'll be meeting soon though to buy tickets to the muay thai championship. (it'll be my first! i can't wait!) oh yeah, i sms-ed 3 times to the contest to win the tickets. -.-" i don't think i'll win. wait, i never ever win in TNP contests. anyway.

and i don't really enjoy being in 4G because i don't enjoy being with fake classmates.

but i won't worry much because i told myself that when i retain, all i will care about is my studies and not care about other things that are not important. only that they are pretty annoying with their fake attitude. and i am annoyed because they had no life but to pretty much disturb my close ones. many people have not yet seen their true colours.

if only i could bring any pets to school, i could bring cats or hamsters or rabbits or guinea pigs or mice or ANYTHING, i will sit with them, eat with them, talk to them & bring them anywhere, they will be my bestest friend ever because they are much better to be with than them.

♥THIRTY.

2007-08-22T20:34:00.001+08:00

Avril Lavigne is getting more hotter. Don't you think so? well, i do.
Deryck sure is one lucky man. :)

Last saturday, went to catch the fireworks. even though i waited for about an hour while standing just to watch it, i have to say it is really worth it. i don't know what to say, it is just so amazing. despite the crowd, the smell of shit around me & our legs were aching like mad, we had a good view i must say.

prelims result has been revealed. i have to say that i am contented with my results this time.
XD im glad with some of the subjects such as social studies, math and especially chemistry results. some are still not revealed yet. my mom & dad is definitely happy about it too. most importantly, my effort has paid off. this year,this time, i actually get to learn/knew more about some things as last year, i really really really had a bad year till it affects my studies.
BUT! im glad i have get back on instead of falling again.

SO DON'T GIVE UP PEOPLE!

and lastly, i miss you saufi. :(
you're busy with your cs. (counterstrike) -.-""

♥TWENTY- NINE.

2007-08-15T23:21:00.000+08:00

Jared Followill makes me melt.

FIRST OF ALL , IM HAPPY BECAUSE MY PRELIMS IS OVER AND I DON'T NEED TO ATTEND SCHOOL TOMORROW! so it is a double yayness!

however, i hope i can at least pass all my subject paper but my history paper is a total 'history' because it was a last minute study. BUT ITS OK, its over now. i shall wait for the results. (TAK SABAR TAK SABAR) -.-"

and i fucking lost my ez-link and it has been months since my nokia hp, 5300 is gone.

:( i miss that hp of mine! why am i so careless? (smack head) i think i need a track device for all my things or microchip? ah nvm.

i am addicted to my school's cheese toast. alright, its random. but seriously addictive because i looovvvvveeeeeee cheese. Joan & I, cheese lover. She is my cheese toast partner. Right, Joan? :) that explains my caption above.

& i just got the cutest emoticon ever at MSN thanks to SYAFIQ! :) fucking cute sia!

kunyit betol, it is so funny! WAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA.

FRIENDS FOREVER. BESTFRIENDS FOREVER. it is just so fucking bullshit. i don't believe in that. i have so many things to write about this but maybe next post. gosh, my own classmates is such a hypocrite. & i thought they are alright, NOT. they acted nice in front of you with fake smiles, but then behind our backs, they will start their bitching session. i used to be close with them but it was for a while only. they tend to abandon to those they think is not fit for them. i am not trying to be mean but this is what i feel/thought about them because i see it with my own eyes. so hell yeah, you came to me asking for help & then could not be bothered about me anymore once you're fine with him. you're taking advantage of your friends, including me. so what if you are well-known by many? so what if you are cute? i know your attitude now. fuck, you seriously sucks. i wish we were not even in the same class. it is so annoying to see you with your blablablablabla. i don't care, i just want to let out my thoughts. isn't that what blog is for?

thanks for reading.

[ADA KAWAN SUSAH, TAKDA KAWAN SUSAH] pergi mampos.

but i still do have really good classmates with me. JOAN,MAS,AISHAH,ZAN,FIONNA. :)

♥TWENTY- EIGHT.

2007-08-10T19:40:00.000+08:00

Singapore turned 42 & it was also our double two months together yesterday. :)

Happy belated birthday Singapore! Happy double two Sopek-pek! Lots of love to you.

Even though we didn't get to see the fireworks, we enjoyed the day with watching & listening to the sound of aeroplanes flying above us, & boy was it so beautiful!

we met a unique cat which has a fluffy kind of fur & the way it lay down, it is so bloody hell cute that you got to see it to believe it. (if only i had taken a picture of it! damn.)

we went to catch RUSH HOUR 3 at Princess, Bedok and yeah, its hilarious. (KELAKAR GILER BABE -.-)

and the best part, i got free facial treatment & massage from him. it was so relaxing. ahhhh...thanks my dear! (do it for me more often ya? :D)

& hell yeah my prelims has started. & hell yeah monday is history & english paper II. & hell yeah i haven't start studying. hellllll yeahhhhhhhhhhh.....

& oh my, i don't have alot of friends! oh my... i don't care. :)

and oh, i went to the baybeats on last saturday. hell yeah i saw alot of people from my school but the only familiar faces i saw was jen & farah. gosh, the old times. ahhhhh......

no offence, too many new faces. =x

♥TWENTY-SEVEN.

2007-07-26T18:12:00.000+08:00

Greetings.

it is my first post without a picture included. i couldn't find any nice picture to put in. apologies for the lack of updates because everytime i wanted to update and had ideas to type, i will feel very lazy at the last minute. i have no idea why.

Racial harmony day is over and i can't wait for National day because it will be a public holidays for two days and then weekends . (WHOO ALRIGHT!)

i hope that my hamster (HAMMIE) will get well soon and be happy!

she has been sick for quite a long time. she is a year plus old. she suffered from fur loss and there is a lump under her hand. :(

since i have brought her to a vet twice and get medications such as antibiotics, vitamins and anti-inflammatory, she is looking better now. :)

though she looks sick, she still have a really big appetite! (now fatter)

GET WELL SOON HAMMIE!

school : (i am attending regularly now!yay me!*pat my back*)

life: pretty much normal and nothing exciting but hey, i like it man.

lately it ahs been a tiring days for me and i got pretty weak because of the cold weather but I LOVE THE COLD AIR! its really nice.

& today during recess something happened.

my phad thai noodle was flying like a superman and BOOM! my precious noodle scattered on the floor.

thanks to the lower sec boy who raise his hand at the time when i wanted to walk with the noodle.

he paid back. of course la, if not.... (MATI)

♥TWENTY-SIX.

2007-07-24T17:10:00.000+08:00

(i seriously don't know why i look so 'bongkok'. my face fat.)

(haha. if you notice, i was the only weird girl wearing high cut shoe with the cheongsam dress.)

(i am the photo-spoiler? muahahaha.)

(AISHAH, err ME & MAS) :)

(AISHAH'S idea to do this but rashidah's the only one posing nicely.)
(what more can i say?)

Racial Harmony Day was not that great but it was fun taking photos with some of them especially with my dear ones.

However, i felt weird with the shoe at first because every girls was like wearing sandals or HIGH heels or pumps but then who the bloody hell cares.

plus i felt UGLY so i didn't take photos that much so that explains why it is so little.

thats all. the end.

♥TWENTY-FIVE

2007-06-30T18:27:00.000+08:00

i love it when its raining at night, knowing for sure that i will sleep peacefully.
i love it when its really windy and making me feel light.
i love it when my bed is neat because it feels nice and it makes me feel like i want to just lie down and relax.
i love it when my drinks is cool because its more refreshing.
i love it when the taxi driver i hailed start a conversation with me because it kills my boredom during my journey and it lightens up my mood. (ystd, i was lost. i was supposed to drop at ikea stop but i end up at seletar camp. i took 168. it was a nightmare but the uncle saves the day! hahaha. from getting panic to relax mood.)
i love it when i laugh with my friends and my family and him until in the end, our face will be red as the reindeer's nose. -.-"
i love it when my house is peaceful.
i love it when my room is clean.
i love it when my mom give me money to buy groceries because i love going to sheng shiong or ntuc. -.-"

i am freaking out over __. mommy! daddy! anyone? rescue me! im alone at home.

♥TWENTY-FOUR.

2007-06-27T14:09:00.000+08:00

KAT VON D.

KAT VON D is so fucking hot, but her husband's not. (hehehehehe!)

Suprisingly, the two days of school is fine. (omg. i actually said that?) i got back my report book (like finally), supposingly before school closed i should have gotten it but i didnt went to school alot of times. i should kicked that foolish habit before i get hooked on it. (wait, im already hooked on it. -.- i didn't go to annual youth carnival today! tired & lazy. sigh. GO FAR FAR AWAY U STUPID HABIT!)

I did poorly for mid year term than the first term but it is much better than last year. last year i failed, but this year, i got 11th for class position. (thank god) i must work harder for a better results! yesterday, we all received our N-level time table. though it is my second attempt to take N-level examination , i still feel terrified. i seriously hope this time i can do it. Starting of July, N-level oral will take place. (gedebak gedebuk) NO MORE SLEEPING! NO MORE DAY DREAMING! NO MORE FOOLING AROUND! NO MORE PLAYING WITH MY STATIONARIES OR DRAWING ON MY RUBBER OR TABLE!

Yay! My hair is growing longer! (jump for joy) but i wish i can go treatment. (money money money) my hair is smooth already but its dry, frizzy.

my dear friend, i hope that you'll get through your complication with him soon. i know its very hard for you but you got no choice but to go through it no matter what. and i know you can do it. :) im sorry if i wasn't much of a help. but i know it'll be fine if you have patience. and i hope he'll wake up real soon.

i also want to say a big thank you especially to my mom for helping me to talk to him. if not for you, things between me and him will still be lingering around. THANKS MAMA! AND TO SIS. AND ALSO TO AZILAH. <3 plus to all my good friends who were there for me to listen to my boring problems all the time. thanks. NADNUT, DEBBIE, MASTURAH, FARIZ, SAL, AISHAH & SYERZAN.

♥TWENTY-THREE.

2007-06-21T17:08:00.001+08:00

(alert alert! huge pimple invading my cheek! that was old times when i still had short hair)

A week has passed and another week will be the end of the june holidays and back to working out my brain. since i didn't update for the past few days, i shall start now. (jeng jeng jeng) (o.o)" so prepare for a long entry. don't like it? find it a bore? go away then. :)

Few days back has been a really bad times for both of us but HELL YEAH! we're okay now. <3

17th JUNE : it was my second day at SPCA. as usual, i have to clean up here and there. but this time, i was pretty sad and shocked because the cat which sleeps at my lap on my first day of volunteering came to attack me by pouncing at my thigh and tried to attack my leg with its sharp claws. (i really am sad you know! then i try to hide my sadness. hahahahaha. yes over a cat. -.-")

i get all that just because i was trying to stop the cat from fighting with another new stripe cat in the same room. the stripe cat was trying to get away from the cat and one time it accidentally jump into the water bowl and KEBUSH! water spilled everywhere. AND I HAVE TO CLEAN IT.

but nevertheless, i enjoyed myself. plus i bought more merchandise there. next, will be a shirt. (hehehuhuhaha) if anyone interested, in adopting or buying or visiting, you can just click at the link i have provided on the left. plus, when i get back home from SPCA, i was suprised to see SPCA was published at newpaper. it says about putting animals to sleep because there were too many of them. and i seriously wish they never did but they had no choice. and i swear, there were so many abandoned cats and dogs and rabbits and even hamsters! and SPCA is not funded by the government. SO PLEASE HELP THEM AS MUCH AS YOU CAN. (thank you!)

My favourite cat of all time in SPCA , Lady (5mths old).

18th JUNE : outing with whole family to celebrate belated father's day supposingly and we dine at our favourite restaurant, CASUARINA CURRY. (yes! indian food! yumyum)

AND yesterday i had a tiring but a great time playing badminton with my dear. it was a first and definitely not going to be the last. my whole body is aching but its worth it. i need to exercise anyway to stay healthy and not get fat after eating many junk food during the holidays. there's more to write but its not necessary to write here. its all kept in my brain and heart. (-.-)byebye!

♥TWENTY-TWO.

2007-06-18T16:12:00.000+08:00

In Loving Memory Of Steve Irwin, the fabulous crocodile hunter who went away too soon. (1962-2006)

I seriously miss him. i know that i am neither related to him nor have i ever met him before in my life but i extremely love watching his tv shows, such as croc files and other programmes. i wish i could still see him doing what he did best, that is to save the animals, to give us more knowledge about animals and he is the best crocodile hunter i have ever seen besides his own father, Bob Irwin.

i watched one of his shows yeterday at animal planet and honestly everytime i look at his face, i will feel sad. i hope he rest in peace. What's more? Terri, his wife and his daughter, Bindi are doing their own shows. i can't wait to watch that.

Afterall, he died when he's doing what he love most. he is a good role model for all of us. i will miss him because i won't forget him.

lots of love.

♥TWENTY ONE.

2007-06-14T21:13:00.001+08:00

hello. In two weeks, i've gone to two barbeque pits at east coast park.

one is fajarhan's birthday pit on the 9th of june (which also marks out our 1 year 8 months supposingly) and another will be my class pit which is yesterday.

going to fajarhan's pit with saufi & salbiah turned out to be awful when going home plus when we went there, we don't really know most of the people there and there were no food and there was revathi and her inseparable best friend (i wish they weren't there but wth).

i shall not elaborate because its nothing to be happy about but anyway i hope he had a great birthday.

ystd pit was quite fun even though i spent most of my time cycling with saufi and walking long distances with my two lovely hamsters. (0.0)-(O.O) --> my hamsters la.

mdm feena was there too and she asked saufi alot of questions. (-.-)"

(CHANGE TOPIC, enough already about the pit)

honestly , i wish i have a best friend or maybe a close friend?

i wish i have someone who will be there for me and just have a hella good time. i miss having 'girl talk'.

in the past when i still had her, most of the things that i do was with her. but of course i never expected things to change between us. but i was the first to make a move. and that is to move away from her. i choose it and i don't regret it at all. (don't get it wrong, im not regretting. im just wishing there's someone whom i can called a 'real friend')

plus i have my reasons. until now i still can't believe what she and he did.

it breaks my heart so i decide that i can never forget or forgive.

♥TWENTY.

2007-06-05T16:42:00.000+08:00

Today, I feel so moody that i get frustrated easily like this,

& very bored to death

plus, its fucking humid here!

& i yawn like hell.

and i wish the people who lives above me will stop doing their fucking renovation.

because it is so noisy like fucking shit.

i can't even sleep. its making my head mad.

pfft.

♥NINETEEN.

2007-06-04T22:23:00.000+08:00

once again, HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY MY DEAR SAUFI!

i love you. (saya cinta kamu/wa ai ni)

im glad you had fun!

and i realised we ate alot today.

nachos. pasta dory. ben & jerry's ice cream! (yummy dummy)

we watched SHREK 3. the babies are so damn cute!

this is a card i made for him. :)

present from me. :) take note of the wrapping. cute cows.

from his friends. :)

HAHA. RANDOM FACE OF MINE. (muke taik)

♥EIGHTEEN.

2007-06-01T16:21:00.001+08:00

the little boy is extremely cute! plus, he's wearing Ben Sherman.

(I WANT ALL THIS PLEASE!)

ESPECIALLY THIS ONE! (drools)

& i really want to buy this fred perry's blouse!

it costs $199! (faint)

finally i saw an outlet that has fred perry's for female. (phew)

but then, i can't afford. (babi tol)

ben sherman at paragon pun takde for female. (-.-)"

aparahhhhhhhhhhhh.

dear dig for both of the brands too.

more like i get influenced by him. (lalalala)

TWO TEACHERS CALLED MY HOUSE TODAY!

aiya.

i didn't go for the remedial and thats why MDM AISHAH CALLED & MS SNG CALLED because of my grades.

since i retained, most teachers expecting me to get VERY GOOD GRADES.

i''ll try.

boys and girls can be so alike at times.

AND MY DEAR TURNING SWEET EIGHTEEN SOON! (-___-)

HE FINALLY CAN..............

watch M18 movies. (pruut)

♥SEVENTEEN.

2007-05-31T20:06:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the first time i accidentally spilled coke onto his shirt & jeans when i was playfully throwing long john silver's crumbs at him. (HAHA)

& also i didn't tell him that he went into a female's toilet at expo until one nyonya inside tell him off. (HEHE)

:) (sorry my dear!)

ystd expo was super boring.
because MPH sale or The Singapore Food Event has ended.

and have you guys seen the advertisement on Spongebob Squarepants Live show?
seriously, THE CHARACTERS ALL LOOK HORRIBLE!
if i were the kids, i wouldn't want to go.
because there's human head sticking out of the costume! (urgh)
i rather see the original faces of the characters.
EVEN PATRICK LOOKS LIKE A REAL DICKHEAD WITH THE HUMAN HEAD!

(SKIP SKIP)
history remedial from 8AM to 12PM!
i think my brain will only function for the first hour.
then the rest hours, it will shut automatically.
cheers.

♥SIXTEEN.

2007-05-30T13:51:00.001+08:00

Last Satuday's outing i accompanied my sister to work & also in the same time met Saufi there. he had recycling service (-.-)" to do there because there was an event for Vesak Day.

Suprisingly, there was also a message board regarding (SPCA), saving the cats, at the event.

And i love orchard's library! because they have naruto's comic novel. (hehe)

he borrowed pokeman. (-.-)"

my sister borrowed about food, making delicious sundaes. (-.-)"

its not like she ever going to do it.

Monday : Physics and Chemistry Remedial. (boohoo)

8AM to 11AM.

i was exempted from Chemistry remedial but i decided to stay because its for my own brain.

but the teacher is pretty sucky. (sorry Mrs.GAN or GUN)

after the remedial, i went home so i will not be late for my first volunteer day at SPCA.

its pretty rushing because it starts at 12.30PM till 3PM & i felt tired but thankfully, my super dad gave me a ride there with his lorry.

when i reached there, i had to sign my name in the book & one of the staff there gave me a tag written as, 'Volunteer' (-.-)"

& i have to say that i don't regret volunteering there! (wee)

i can only handle cats & other small animals such as hamsters & rabbits.

i can't handle dogs but i do talk with the dogs too. no, i don't go WOOF WOOF!

im the shelter helper so all i have to do is to keep their home clean, refill & clean the water and give them their food.

i have to monitor two rooms.

one room where there is about 10 cats or more( they were not caged) means they are free to roam about anywhere. so when im trying to clean their places, they are either sleeping or walking around your legs. i have to try my best not to accidentally step on them. and obviously they are adorable and too friendly.

and once, i was resting in the room, sitting down in the centre and out of nowhere this black cat jump on my lap with the sharp claw out (OUCH!) to have a better grip on my not so thick pants and went to sleeping land! i had to carry the cat off my lap because it won't budge when i want to get up. (0.0)

but its the most wonderful moment i have ever had.

can't wait for my next trip to SPCA.

meeting saufi at 4PM later. we're off to expo & stationaries shopping! (haha! i need money for clothes!)

its GREAT SINGAPORE SALE!

AAAAAAHHHHHHHHH.

roll in the money baby.

♥FIFTEEN.

2007-05-23T20:12:00.001+08:00

The Blank Gig. 2005. see all the familiar faces? :)
Emily & Me at the toilet. -.-" as you can see, i have a black top over me now.
The hyperactive Aziee & Me. the young days. Emil, Me, Aziee. :) Emil, Aziee, Me, Yan.
Sweaty & Smelly.
i didn't update for quite a long time because
i just find myself lost for words to update recently plus the stupid error problem the blogger faced few days back just pissed me off.
as you can see, all the pics was taken on 2005, back then when i was 15 and still young.

many things have changed though.
that was my very old big computer back then.
the room also has changed in some ways.
that time, i was preparing to go to a gig with Emily & Erin, along with my sister and her friends too. met the rest there.

those times was nothing but just to have fun & mosh here and there.
i miss those days.

and those times was when i was very close with aziee,emil all.
its been a long time since i last hang ard with them.

the last time i met them,it was at bugis.
they were at a gig at Gas Haus so Emily and i decided to see them.
Dina was there too and she gave me a really big tight hug.
and now she's not in singapore.

sigh. those times.

where i often go to esplanade with them and how i always went over my curfew time.
ahmad the magic guy. aziee. emil. khairil. maii. nad. dil. yan. yat. afiq. emily. asri. dina. theresa. dalilah. aniqah.

-.-

why am i naming all of them?
i just miss those times.
:)

and i also remember, we also compete with each other to those who can reached to the apek's stall first at esplanade. haha.

anyway, my life can be great or sucky at times but i'll never forget the great memories i had.

peace people. (o.o)v

♥FOURTEEN.

2007-05-08T18:39:00.000+08:00

in loving memory of the brown & white rabbit also known as Harry.
i hope you rest in peace with other wonderful rabbits.
the black & white rabbit also knows as Peter Parker is missing you.
i know i know, their names. spiderman! -.-"

Let the pictures do the talking.

♥THIRTEEN.

2007-05-04T21:57:00.000+08:00

how i wish i am beautiful like them ...

then again, who wouldn't?

plus, they can buy whatever they want.

i bet they have a walk in closet?

-.-

not that it is important to have the most expensive things in life ...

but it will be great.

but maybe in 10 years time in my life ... or ... more or ... never?

wonder where will i be in years to come.

i'll worry about that later.

mid year exams has started.

i screw up HISTORY paper & maybe SOCIAL STUDIES?

let's just say goodbye to my combined humanities paper!

currently, im reading this book called Anne Frank & Me.

pretty interesting.

yeah i know, many have read.

but its good to read now than never?

& there's more books waiting for me!

my mp3 is finally ready for collection tomorrow.

thankfully. if not, no music, no fun.

tomorrow going out with him him him him.

i hope everything will turned out fine.

and i wondering and wondering but i fear what the answer will be.

please god.

please let things be fine.

♥TWELVE.

2007-05-01T18:24:00.000+08:00

NEW YEARS DAY =D

Ready Aim Misfire

Get out of the car, and don't try and stop me

Stay where you are, 'cause there you can't hurt me

You took things too far, and I don't deserve this

You said that you'd be, you'd always be honest

And mean what you say, but you broke every promise

That you ever made, and I don't deserve this

If I had just one bullet, and a trigger I'd pull it

Shoot my cupid out of the skyBreak off his wings, and gouge out his eyes

And thank him for nothing, 'cause that's all that he gave to me

Your love is my heart disease

Don't try and call, I'm not going to answer

I'm not going to fall for another disaster

That you put me through, and I don't deserve this

If I had just one bullet, and a trigger I'd pull it

Shoot my cupid out of the sky

Break off his wings and gouge out his eyes

And thank him for nothing, 'cause that's all that he gave to me

Your love is my heart disease

I don't care anymore

Because without you I'm better off.

Shoot my cupid out of the sky

Break off his wings and gouge out his eyes

And thank him for nothing, 'cause that's all that he gave to me

Your love is my heart disease

Shoot my cupid out of the sky

Break off his wings and ask him just why

He played such a sick joke on the fool that is me

And curse me with this sickness

Your love is my heart disease.

♥ELEVEN.

2007-04-28T19:42:00.000+08:00

images taken.

more images at KHAIRUL'S BLOG.

CLICK HERE!

thank you.

and sorry for my fugly face.

proceed....

sorry to ........ that i told a white lie.

i got no choice.

FUN OH FUN!

keep the fun going mates. :D

love love. <3

and i bumped into his mom.

0.0!

and i realised that you're unappreciative.

bullshit lah you.

we sms each other when we had problems.

you called me to talk about him.

you were crying and everything.

and i tried to make things better.

you said we'll go out soon.

but instead, you went out with them?

ok whatever.

once again, screw you.

goodbye readers.

♥TEN.

2007-04-26T17:10:00.000+08:00

all i can say is...many great things happened this few days and still going on, i hope.

i have to thank god for all this.

& my family & friends.

oh my baby hair...please grow fast baby.

i can't wait for my hair to grow FAST & FURIOUS!

spiderman 3... HERE I COME. *release the web*

CLICK BELOW TO LOOK AT THE SATURDAY'S OUTING TO OCH. :)

http://www.dropshots.com/day.php?userid=239403&cdate=20070421&cimg=0

♥NINE.

2007-04-06T16:59:00.000+08:00

LILY ALLEN

Even though i don't really like yellow because its too bright to me, i still like this
dress of hers.

I wouldn't mind wearing this dinasour suit to the Singapore Zoo.

Her hair and dress is simply g-o-r-g-e-o-u-s.

What more can i say? I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THE DRESS & EVERYTHING!

PARQUET = DONE!

DOORS = TOMORO!

MESS = Hmmm.....

I went to the doctor yesteday because of my backache.

got ointment and painkiller.

doctor says it might be a strain due to my heavy bag.

if there's no improvement within weeks or months,

I HAVE TO GO BACK TO HPB FOR X-RAY!

other than that, i also request removal of milia seed under my nose.

i don't like it there and it makes me look HORRIBLE even though its smaller now.

if its at my ass, i don't bloody care.

still waiting for an appointment to go for the surgery.

i hope its not over a thousand dollars.

i tried taking it out once but end up having blood dripping out of it.

oh, i used nail clipper (OUCH!)

Mid - year exams coming soon!

i must really study hard this time around.

i hope everything is going to be fine.

even though its an only one word sms, i actually felt happy after a long time.

♥EIGHT.

2007-04-04T20:04:00.000+08:00

Mokona Modoki.
Two adorable rabbit-like creatures from Tsubasa Anime.
I prefer the black one. :)
I wanted to buy the backpack once at Vivo city but i changed my mind because it was the white one instead and it does not have much compartments.
but...still cute.

I didn't went to school today, AGAIN.
i felt tired plus i have a really bad backache, till now.
:(
i guess due to my heavy bag?
plus, i have scoliosis.
hopefully it doesn't affect my spine.
if it does....
i have a bone that works like a 80 year old.

AND OH LOVELY PARQUET.
can't wait.
:)

CHECK OUT THE SUPER ANIMALS!
if you guys planning to buy a pet, its better to adopt it at SPCA then buy it at normal animal shops. plus its cheaper at SPCA.
:D
http://www.spca.org.sg/adoption/adoption.asp

oh yeah, my volunteering haven't start. :(
cepat lah SPCA!

♥SEVEN.

2007-04-02T18:49:00.000+08:00

"It's not easy being green."

Kermit The Frog

Do you feel different, alone, left out, or strange?

Does it seem that how you look, act, think, and feel is unusual compared to everyone else?

Are you considered an oddball or an outcast at school?

Don't think yourself as weird - think of yourself as ORIGINAL.

You're an individual; you stand apart from the crowd.

According to MTV political correspondent Tabitha Soren,

"The ones who take a different path often end up being the innovation of society."

IM GLAD IM AN ORIGINAL.

Just feel like sharing.

♥SIX.

2007-04-01T13:45:00.000+08:00

INTRODUCING... TIMMY THE BABY SHEEP!

too adorable to touch right?

i wish i can bring him back and make him my pet!

oh yeah, i used this picture as my wallpaper, i can stare at it for long.

yesteday movie marathon at Fina's house was nice.

i met up with Emily & Ayukz at Tamp Int, the place where i want to avoid due to some reasons.

but i ended up meeting them there, somewhere somehow i survived besides me shaking like hell afterwards.

no idea why.

we took 65 straight to Fina's house at ard harbourfront.

in the bus was kecoh-ness.

with ayukz ard, there'll always be kecoh-ness.

suprisingly, we were still alive after a whole lot of groups of students from cross-country board the bus with this really really strong smell.

skip skip.

MOVIES THAT WE WATCHED:

* the chainsaw massacre (gross, scary and i feel disgusted cos we all were eating KFC)

* the sassy girl (funny funny funny and sweet.)

* monster house (only for a while, got bored of it.)

* bujang lapok (only a while too.)

* cursed ( for few mins.)

i just don't understand why i couldn't feel contented.

maybe because i think too much about him.

it sucks big time.

because i want to have fun and be happy.

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY.

plus i feel like an extra.

-.-

then Fina's parents drive all of us to eat at Simpang Bedok.

her parents are great. :)

Spize.

yumyum.

i ordered Lasagna Rosso, Fina ordered Bangers & Mash, Emily ordered Chicken Carameza( i think) and Ayu ordered Seafood olio.

YUMYUMYUMYUM rootbeer float.

but i didn't get to finished mine. too full and bloated.

SKIP SKIP.

went home.

and i feel like shit.

because i was still thinking about him for no reason why.

srew you.

♥FIVE

2007-03-23T18:12:00.000+08:00

NOTHING seems to be working out.

especially things with you.

you ignore my sms and calls.

you told me let's be friends.

but you're not even treating me like a friend at all.

Seems to me, you're doing perfectly well without me.

please, stop playing with my heart. it hurts like dksasjdhdaskdj.

its affecting me and my family.

NAD, im really jealous of you-know-wad.

seriously.

IF that were to happen to me, i bet you, i'll be smiling like hell.

but my time isn't here yet.

im just scared it won't even happen at all.

I don't know what to do anymore.

I don't know.

i seriously don't know.

it seems funny how a few weeks back, we were perfectly fine until the day we fight.

how i wish i could just rewind the time.

& how i wish i could mend my mistakes.

& how i wish i could hear you say you love me like you used to.

please god, please don't separate us.

thats what i prayed evey time before i go to sleep.

♥FOUR.

2007-03-21T16:02:00.000+08:00

SAY A BIG HELLO TO...

& SAY GOODBYE TO...

(obviously my 6101 was in a worst state than in this picture. even my friends were horrified by it till they did not dare to touch it even further. don't ask.)

HOORAY to my new handphone!

HOORAY to my dad!

its my first time having a handphone with bluetooth function. seriously, no kidding. okay shut up.

no school for 3 days straight. 2 days with MC but another with just a typical reason, sleepy and tired. I bet there's a big pile of homework waiting for me when i go to school tomoro.

things with him? nothing yet. still stressed about it. trying to relax myself. its hard though.

NAD LET'S BE STRONG OKAY?

I can't wait to start my voluntary work at SPCA!

i hope i don't catch fleas from them.

♥THREE.

2007-03-03T20:15:00.000+08:00

things are not going that well in my life now.

but school is alright.

im very happy & proud of the results for my studies.

my teacher is very happy for me too.

MDM FEENA, she's just great.

talking with her about my problems helps me alot.

i hope the problems i facing now won't affect my studies again.

but of course, the one person that i really want to share my happiness with has gone.

what's going on?

i am clueless.

i am extremely hurt with your sudden decision.

what do you take me for?

im not your spare tyre. you take me and leave me whenever you like it.

plus, this is the second time.

its not like we can't work things out, we can. but u choose to do this to me instead.

im sorry for being so PMS-sy that day but i apologised many times to you.

and you said, 'okay.'

then the next day, you sms me saying,'let's be friends.let's concentrate on studies.let time heal the relationship.'

you told my friend its not a break up. its a dwngrade from relation to frens.

isn't it like the same?

how can you promised me so many things and yet not one is kept.

now you're ignoring me.

im trying to talk things out with you but you don't want to.

if you want time off, its fine with me.

but don't leave me just like that in a sudden.

we've been together for long.

don't tell me you want to throw it away just like that.

please don't be selfish. i have feelings too dear.

and i still love you.

THANKS TO ALL MY FRENS, SISTER AND MY MOM.

thanks for helping.

I LOVE YOU ALL!

♥TWO.

2007-02-19T14:34:00.000+08:00

GONG XI FA CAI!

firstly, the money collections doesn't satisfy me.

but it's alright. at least there's money than nothing.

altogether, i received $140.

so far, my father's boss gave the most.

the best part about chinese new year is the clothings.

don't need to wear hot or double layers clothings.

just wear simple.

this time when my family & i went to my AH MA house which is nearby, quite a number of people were already there. shake hands here and there. smile here and there. oranges here and there.

my sister & i sat with Aunt Karen's two cute daughters. :)

they kind of resemble my sister & i when we were young like them.

suprisingly, all four of us wore the same colours, red and pink and we sat in coordinations on the sofa.

they're so adorable. :)

its a total boredom when the two kids went home.

no more entertainment from them.

so i end up reading my book & comic.

couldn't concentrate due to the noise from the tv,radio & my loudmouth aunties.

of course i don't understand much about what they talk cos they talked in teochew/mandarin.

fast forward.

then we went home & immediately count our money.

the end.

♥ONE.

2007-02-16T12:00:00.000+08:00

hey readers.

finally updating my blog after a very long time.

that also means prepare for a long entry.

just say im busy & lazy to update my blog.

but i know i changed my skin more often than i updated it.

just can't find the right skin.

i didn't go to school today because i feel really really tired and my legs feels like a thousand kilogram of rocks.

yesterday was very happening at my school because we held a FIESTA CARNIVAL for the first time.

& i have to say its fun & i got to be a photographer for a day for my media club duty.

my mom & sister also came at night.

my mom made henna painting at her hand from my class. :)

& sis bought a t-shirt for a dollar!

& i bought photoframe, monkey toy, some tidbits and balloons for myself and frens.

unfortunately, my purple heart-shaped balloon burst. :(

then there's also lion dance. & the funny part is when the principals and others suppose to pull the crackers and nothing came out and everybody is waiting for it. WAAHAHHA. that part tickles me like hell sia.

moving on, valentine's day was nice.

i don't celebrate it anyway. i also didn't expect him to turn up outside my school to suprise me but its only for a while cos after that i had cca.

but of course, it made my day.

he told me that we don't need to celebrate valentine's day cos first of all we're not christians and second of all, he told me we don't need to celebrate our love only once a year.

I'VE UPDATED GUYS!

don't say i didn't.